sea24

Today, I destroyed something which I created in the past. It was a small clay model that I made when I was spending time with my family and cousins, and I cherished that little clay sculpture, because it reminded me of the days I was very happy sharing memories with my cousins.

But today, I noticed it getting too dusty. As clay is prone to being sticky in nature so it naturally attracts a lot of dust, and so therefore, I decided to let my intrusive thoughts take over and ruin it with just a pinch of my fingers.

I thought, I would regret it after it’s ruined, but it didn’t actually weigh down on me. Instead it made me feel how much in control I was. If I didn’t like something, I can simply destroy it and remove it from my life. After all it was my own creation. head.

And if I can create it, I can very much destroy it as well, just like the thoughts in my head that I create that sometimes weigh me down. Sometimes we create these perceptions in our heads that doesn’t really let us live out our true potential, and we have to eventually let it go, or even destroy it.

I don’t really have the need of feeding that stagnant energy in my life and so I can start anew whenever I want.

Soon after, I saw another piece in my room, which I had created even before this destroyed clay sculpture. I don’t even remember when I created that. I don’t remember what mental state I was in, when I created that. I took that piece, and threw it on to the ground, shattering it to pieces. I loved how it made me feel.

I have the tendency of keeping even the littlest of things from the past and cherishing them, which can lead to me being emotionally attached to those things, be it non-living or actual living things. I have decided to let things go for the better and be more prone to the present, where I have to create a better version of myself, which doesn’t weigh me down.

And so when I destroyed these two pieces, it gave me the satisfaction of being in control of my life and whom I choose to keep in my life.

From now on, it is me and solely me, who decides who I let inside my head and my heart. Nobody else can decide that for me.

Hope this helped whoever is reading it.

I think this sculpture looks better like this anyways.

This is the remaining eye of the other sculpture that I destroyed.

Anyways, have a good day.

Yours truly,

SEA