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My current favorite thing in my house is my yoga mat, where I often fall asleep while doing yoga.

Just like this morning, I decided to do some yoga, and I dozed off to sleep, only to wake up and then watch the interview of an actor, describing how she prepared for the role of Edwina Sharma from Bridgeton.

I guess it was an eventful morning, just not for me.

But maybe because I’ve been sick for the past couple of days, ever since I returned from my trip with my friends, I’ve been sleeping a lot.

Feeling drowsy even just sitting around the sofa, or standing and observing my surroundings.

Or should I say, I can’t seem to keep awake because of the cough syrup that I have been consuming for my soar throat, that is making me sleep like a pig.

And today, is another day of me feeling not that purposeful, where I feel like I am not doing enough, not working hard enough to exist in this lifetime, and feel extremely bad for simply living life.

But either ways, I am still existing, because my next meal prepared by my mum, is going to help me survive through out the day, till I go back to sleep again feeling unfruitful and having felt the guilt of not having done something eventful and productive.

When I first watched Bridgeton, I really liked the vibe of it, although I am not a huge fan of romance and fairytale like things, but now I am obsessing over it, by listening to its music in the background, while I write this. I want to start watching another TV show, but I am holding myself back from doing so, as I know I wouldn’t be able to leave it till I finish it all in one go, and then I will be wasting atleast two days of my life not doing anything and regretting later of wasting my time.

Time is too important, and I have to take matters in my own hands. But also because I’m in the creative field, I have to watch certain dramas and tv shows, to keep me inspired and growing in the direction of new trends and analogies.

So, I think I will watch that TV show, but just not now. when the time is right, and when I have finished the work that I am supposed to be doing.

only then will I give myself the luxury of watching a TV show that I have been craving to watch.

but then again, I am feeling too lazy to see another drama from the TV show unfolding in front of my eyes and stressing about it, when my life itself is a like a sider’s web of overwhelming emotions and regrets.

Anyways, have a nice day ahead.

yours truly,

SEA